I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m severely burned out. I just don’t want to admit it. Between a full day of work at a job where things are so unpredictable to a school that has an accelerated schedule and keeping my exercise schedule, I find myself running ragged fast. Every night, I come home completely exhausted. I’m lucky if I make it home before 8 or 8:30 PM and have dinner. By the end of dinner I am ready to nod off but I have to watch the archived videos of my class’ lectures. Try focusing on it for a hour without nodding off or getting confused and I’ll be colored impressed. Add the homework assignments to it and it just blows.
I’ve thought about quitting something – take something out of my schedule but what? I need my job to keep a roof over my head. I need school to get that degree for a better job. I need to exercise to keep my blood pressure down and lose weight. I never want to get fat again after focusing so much on work that I neglected myself. I used to work a 3 pm to 1 am schedule. That was brutal.
I don’t know. But something is going to break.
